Saturday, June 23, 2007
and the bug emerges from hibernation
Ok, I'll admit that i have been extremely lazy and unproductive recently..in terms of blogging anyway..so here i am, guilt-stricken and erm..bored. :)well, first things first. YANNI!!!! I HEARD YOU ARE BACK!!! WHY NEVER CONTACT ME ONE!!! MUST DATE SOME TIME!!!! ok, I'm done..but let's meet up soon and just chat and chat and chat!! I heard, correction: know, you have some thing to confess...what happened to the viagra email i'm supposed to receive? hahaa..but i'm working now, so can only meet up for dinners or on weekends..
Talking about work, i've come to realize something after 6 weeks. that is, i actually don't know myself very well..i used to think that i'm not very ambitious and that i don't desire to be in positions of power or leadership. but now i realize that at the same time, i don't wish to be stuck in the same spot all the time, and that sometimes, having power to make decisions and to voice you opinions might not be a bad thing after all. i guess what i want is recognition for my effort (which more often than not translates to a promotion, though being promoted doesn't necessarily mean that you're capable), and a sense of satisfaction from my job (or should i say career?)..but it's not as easy as being in school, where your grades are somewhat reflective of your effort/ calibre/ whatever you want to call it. at work, it's a more complicated mix of luck, relationships with your colleagues/bosses, being at the right place at the right time, knowing how to make oneself heard and many other things which i'm sure i have yet to learn. but i find all these very tiring. i guess at the end of the day what's impt is that i'm happy, true and also fair to myself. i'll seek to find the balance between all these, and see where life leads me to..
P.S. i went running today, and i saw a crow flying off with a hanger in its beak. i wonder what use it has for it...hmmm...
boonshan at 10:57 AM