Tuesday, April 25, 2006
musings
im pretty damn slack now, wif the biggest events being the med interview behind me (oh yucky poo man!) n 2 more interviews n 2 tests before me... i dun und why i muz choose all the courses wif interviews n tests man... shit. im so lazy. n i dun wanna go :(anw yeah i've been gg out a lot these days... n for someone wif a very meagre income of <$200 a mth (!!!) tt is BAD! HAIYO. yeah deplorable. i've found a fren in an ex-colleague (not any of the shuai ges or guys i lyk HEE) who is rather jobless (lyk me) n waiting for better things to happen (lyk me) n so slackers naturally find solace in being wif other peepz who haf not much to do...
haf u ever spent 10hrs a day being out n talking till u're soo tired... or travelled round Sg in search of the best (n cheap!) foods? (lyk makan sutra budden wif smaller budgets, appetites n lousy zi lian photos of crumbs... -_-) well, yeah. fun hor. :) I HAVE. :D
budden... i haf realised things abt myself too... i am actually pretty damn petty, wif a terrible tolerance for jokes tt get too serious n insulting... n mebbe im juz plain insecure. or sth. n mebbe i think too much becuz im too free, but i was quite shocked to hear this from lyk, u know, a new fren. n we've been having these stupid childish arguments... im SO irritated.
i've realised tt the only other criticism tt i've remembered abt myself (there haf been many la! BLEAH! but this one sticks the most) is my sec sch partner saying, "u're not understanding AT ALL"... n i think i remember it becuz no one has ever said tt abt me b4 i think :( eh? or mebbe shld be :) ???
i dunno! hai. anw, pls console me, i'm NOT fake, am i? becuz i criticise others so much for tt, pls dun make me a fako too!!! :( does laughing at unfunny jokes to get along wif others qualify? SIGH.
anw, ya. my horoscope says tt if i've been at home too much it's time to get out! n if i've been out to much it's time to rent a video n stay in... i think i need to stay in. :) im trying to learn how to sing zhoujielun songs! i've been neglecting the new ones... they're actually pretty nice! :)
u know, my dear lao gong... i think u shld try to love ur life now... no matter how bad ur job is, or how boring n meaningless it all seems... we're all juz in a transition stage, n there's sth to look forward to! a new life in uni!
n no matter wad bad things happen, it's not long-term becuz we'll be leaving it soon to embrace new things... so u can really n truly say it's all unimportant n it's juz an experience... u know? how many times in ur life can u try out these things tt u mebbe dislike but u try to succeed in despite tt, n know tt at the end of the day, if u fail u can leave it all behind, n if u succeed u haf really grown in character? sounds so idealistic huh :) but yeah... it'll all be FINE! *hugggg* :)
P.S.: i feel lyk dyeing my hair, after all the interviews... take a look at this:
cool? :D n i think pink n black may look better than pink n blonde?P.P.S.: im so free i even made a few colourful words! aiyo. doesn't mean anything. n i think im beginning to write bimbotically... aww man.
cyn at 4:59 PM